Move Along Move Along Just to Make It Through

I woke up at 4 am this morning and could not get back to sleep. I lay there for two hours tossing and turning, my mind reeling out of control, vacillating back and forth with different decisions I have to make and each debate increasing my stress level. I tried to block it out. I tried to stop my mind, think of other things, but I should have known from past experience that that never works. Around 6 am I fell into a troubled sleep, interrupted by nightmares that were undoubtedly a manifestation of my stress. I awoke at 11 am feeling completely unrested and more or less miserable.

Then I read Drew's blog. Somehow that's all I needed to clear nearly everything up. He reminded me of the one thing, and the most important thing that I had forgotten in my preoccupation with what if's and concern for others. I have to look out for myself. I have to pick up and move forward. To stagnate ad dwell, to let my past control my present, that will only make me miserable. I would be wasting my time and hurting myself when I could be making the most of my time and helping myself. Even though it seems like my life stops on occasion, time doesn't. And I'm a fool if I'm going to let it pass me by. It's not going to pick me up and carry me with it. it's going to rush right past me and leave me behind wondering where I am and where it went. I HAVE to let go and I HAVE to move forward. And I HAVE to have faith that as long as I am true to myself things will work out in my favor. I've done my time. Now it's time for pay off.

Thanks, Drew!